It\u2019s not loud.<\/p>\n
Not dramatic.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s just that moment when you’re saying something and they look away.<\/p>\n
Or change the subject.<\/p>\n
Or act like you’re taking too long.<\/p>\n
And you notice.<\/p>\n
Even if you pretend not to.<\/p>\n
You feel yourself pull back.<\/p>\n
You don\u2019t mean to.<\/p>\n
It just happens.<\/p>\n
A small part of you shuts the door a little.<\/p>\n
Because something in you whispers,<\/p>\n
\u201cNot again.\u201d<\/p>\n
You were just trying to talk.<\/p>\n
Just trying to connect.<\/p>\n
Not even about anything deep.<\/p>\n
You just wanted to feel like someone was there.<\/p>\n
With you.<\/p>\n
For a second.<\/p>\n
But they weren\u2019t.<\/p>\n
Not really.<\/p>\n
So now you\u2019re sitting there, wondering why you feel this ache<\/p>\n
over something that looked so small on the outside.<\/p>\n
And you tell yourself:<\/p>\n
Stop being so sensitive.<\/p>\n
Don\u2019t expect so much.<\/p>\n
Just stop talking so much next time.<\/p>\n
But then\u2014next time comes.<\/p>\n
And you still do it.<\/p>\n
You still try.<\/p>\n
Still hope they\u2019ll listen.<\/p>\n
That they\u2019ll notice you\u2019re hurting, or tired, or just need someone to say,<\/p>\n
\u201cI get it. I\u2019m here.\u201d<\/p>\n
But they don\u2019t.<\/p>\n
Not the way you wish they would.<\/p>\n
And it\u2019s not like they don\u2019t care.<\/p>\n
You know they do.<\/p>\n
Just\u2026 not like that.<\/p>\n
Not in the way you need.<\/p>\n
So then what do you do with that?<\/p>\n
You can\u2019t be mad.<\/p>\n
They\u2019re not bad people.<\/p>\n
They\u2019re just caught up in their own stuff.<\/p>\n
Like everyone is.<\/p>\n
And maybe you are too much sometimes.<\/p>\n
Maybe you do talk too long.<\/p>\n
Maybe you do want more than most people know how to give.<\/p>\n
But it still hurts.<\/p>\n
And you’re tired of pretending it doesn\u2019t.<\/p>\n
You wish you could stop needing.<\/p>\n
Wish you could stop hoping someone will finally get it.<\/p>\n
But even now\u2014some part of you still does.<\/p>\n
Still wants someone to meet you in the middle.<\/p>\n
To look you in the eye and not look away.<\/p>\n
You\u2019re not bitter.<\/p>\n
You\u2019re not angry.<\/p>\n
You\u2019re just tired.<\/p>\n
And maybe grieving something you never fully had.<\/p>\n
A kind of being seen that never quite came.<\/p>\n
And you’re trying to tell yourself it’s okay.<\/p>\n
That you can hold space for your own ache,<\/p>\n
Even when no one else does.<\/p>\n
But some nights, it still gets heavy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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