There is something deeply humiliating about becoming emotionally needy after once being emotionally untouchable.<\/p>\n
You miss the version of yourself that didn’t wait around hoping someone would notice you more. Choose you more. Need you more. Love you louder.<\/p>\n
Back then, your heart felt guarded but safe. Closed, maybe. A little ruthless, perhaps. But at least it belonged to you.<\/p>\n
Now it feels like your emotions are constantly tied to other people’s attention.<\/p>\n
Their replies. Their presence. Their softness.<\/p>\n
And the worst part is that you can see it happening in real time.<\/p>\n
You can feel yourself becoming sensitive in places you never used to care about before.<\/p>\n
Fragile. Emotional. Affected.<\/p>\n
Almost obsessed with trying to get back the warmth that once existed naturally.<\/p>\n
The “good old days.”<\/p>\n
Before betrayal. Before exhaustion. Before life hardened everyone.<\/p>\n
Because sometimes people go through so much that they unknowingly stop loving with the same energy they once had.<\/p>\n
And maybe that is what hurts the most.<\/p>\n
That the warmth became thinner.<\/p>\n
Quieter.<\/p>\n
Like now you only receive scraps of what used to come naturally.<\/p>\n
And if you have abandonment wounds somewhere inside you already, those scraps can become addictive.<\/p>\n
Because scarcity does strange things to the heart.<\/p>\n
The less love feels available, the more desperately you begin chasing proof that it still exists.<\/p>\n
Attention becomes reassurance. Reassurance becomes survival. And suddenly you are emotionally starving in places you once felt full.<\/p>\n
It is exhausting.<\/p>\n
Especially when part of you is fully aware that if love felt secure again, you probably would not even crave it this intensely.<\/p>\n
But insecurity changes people.<\/p>\n
Being emotionally overlooked changes people.<\/p>\n
And sometimes you sit there grieving not only the people who changed\u2026 but yourself too.<\/p>\n
Because you don’t always recognise this version of you anymore.<\/p>\n
The version that overthinks. Overfeels. Overreacts internally. Gets hurt too easily. Needs too much reassurance.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you want to go back to the old you.<\/p>\n
Not because that person was healthier. But because they seemed less heartbroken.<\/p>\n
They had their own source of joy. Their own emotional independence. Their own inner world untouched by constant disappointment.<\/p>\n
And maybe that is the real grief: not simply that people changed\u2026 but that love changed you too.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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